You love to hurt others, don't you?

Mon, 16 Jun 2008 11:29:15 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STINAAAAA :D
15 already huh? hahaha.
Happy enjoying your birthday eh,until the clock strikes 12.

once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU KIBUM/JAE LOVER :D

hoho :D

Mon, 16 Jun 2008 03:03:00 GMT

Got the quiz from Jane's lj. hehe.



		I will marry Jaejoong.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in Dongdaemun in our fabulous Mansion.
		We will have 7 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a Black red sports car.
		I will spend my days as a language teacher, and live happily ever after.

hahah omg i hope it's true...MANSION? you kidding me? and in dongdaemun? ahhaha
And who's gonna do all those housework? ~~*points to jaejoong*~~

I know lah, you all confirm say it's just a quiz thingy.
But hah it seems that it's a coincidence that jaejoong got picked between the three names i put.Now who's gonna yell 'cheater'? :D

no mood to study T.T

Wed, 11 Jun 2008 02:55:40 GMT

June holidays are boring. I have no life too...
Everyday sit at home watch tv/play comp/sitting and doing nothing.
wlao three more weeks to go T.T can die already.
And i am not looking forward to mdm chee coming back k. So irritating. I bet i'll be praying before every lesson that she doesn't pick on me T.T especially since i have no mood to go back to school for term 3 and 4.
i hate studying!!!!!!!

damn...i sound so childish.
I need to go get a life :/

roundabout

Wed, 21 May 2008 04:27:34 GMT

i'm at school library now.
Nothing better to do.

Cant be bothered to do Geog work so.

NEXT WK IS GONNA BE BUSY!
Speedlight games day + Class chalet + Training T.T (i dont want to go trng though.)

Anyway, annyeong! Shall update as often as possible since i feel so -ugh- cause im like deserting my lj for the past few months 0.0

so, annyeong

i hate you

Thu, 01 May 2008 13:39:40 GMT

i hate her.

She doesn't know that most of the things she says is fucking hurting.
Especially in that tone of her voice.
I couldn't take it any longer.
And hah i bet she has never talked or scolded him in that kind or words and tone.
Fucking hell she doesn't know how much it hurts.

I'll just bear with it.
Till one day, when i'm set free,
I'LL FUCKING MAKE SURE SHE GETS BACK AT LEAST DOUBLE OF HOW MUCH I'VE SUFFERED.

why don't people just realise what they say really affects others sometimes.

Me, you, everything.

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 09:45:14 GMT

Mianhae.
But i don't think i can continue any longer.
I just wanna get out of this.
This place,situation,everything.

Everything's fucked up.
Me,You,Everything.

3 to 5 more years. How long is that? very.
Do i have the patience?the time?
no.

But i can't do anything, can i?
Cause everything's screwed up.
Me,You,Everything.

I'll wait.
3 to 5 years.
So that everything becomes better again.
3 to 5 years, is all it takes, for everything to be normal again.
But there's a price to pay.
I'll have to leave everything, well, almost.

Seems like it's not worth it huh?

But i don't care.
I'll do all it takes.
Even if it means leaving everything i've had here.
Yes,
me,you,everything.

Broken Promises pt 2

Sat, 05 Apr 2008 06:27:00 GMT

Title: Broken Promises
Length: Two shots
Author: lastclasshero
Rating: G
Genre: Death, a little angst (not sure which genre lol)
Summary: You taught him two things...

A/N: I think the way i wrote it is a little difficult for people to understand ne? especially for part 1..well, i think it is , cause i'm kind of used to writing like that. Do bear with me kk:D

Oh and, to make it easier to understand, Jaejoong had a terminal disease and died. So, that, explains the first part where he was pale and, obviously , died.
So sorry aye. Because the idea of the fic is kinda personal, cause it was based on something that happened to me . so somehow, i couldn't shove all the things i needed to shove into the fic.
Hmm..and this is my first oneshot/two shot kinda thing i wrote... so...
I don't know if i will continue writing fics yet hahahah
Okay enough said;D

Well then, enjoy :D
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He watched as other people took turns to place flowers on the grave.

-flashback-

He knew, You knew, that it was your last few minutes. But,

"Jae..Promise me you'll never lie to me, promise me that you'll never let go..please." He sobbed to you.

Forcing out a weak smile, he whispered back , "I promise Yunnie-ah. Don't cry, it hurts to see you cry.."

-end of flashback-

Under normal circumstances, he would have hated you. For he always hated those who broken their promises and those who had lied to him.

But, he didn't hate you.

Because, the day you taught him the pain of betrayal of a broken promise, was the day you taught, and he learnt, to forgive and forget.

He forgave.
Yet....he couldn't forget.

For he was Jung Yunho.

He, couldn't forget you, because you were Kim Jaejoong, his one and only love, forever.

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Broken Promises pt 1

Sat, 05 Apr 2008 04:36:30 GMT

Title: Broken Promises
Length: Two shots
Author: lastclasshero
Rating: G
Genre: Death, a little angst (not sure which genre lol)
Summary: You taught him two things...

A/N: Wrote this in less than 15 mins last night. Why 15 mins? Because it's really short. The shortest fic i've ever written :D I've actually written part 2 already about 1 hour ago, but i've figured i'll wait cause if you all wanna read part 2, then i'll post it up;D and it's un-beta-ed. Do bear with my mistakes :D Oh and sorry for using too many "you" in this fic... cause i'm not gonna reveal who's 'you' and 'him' till part 2...so...

oh andand credits to the song "lies" by big bang cause i used part of the lyrics :D plus, most likely, if i post up part 2, it'll be f-locked...
Enjoy :D

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On a plain white bed.

You lay there.

Your skin pale and breathing gets more and more difficult.

Yet, your hands still held on to his hands.
You promised you'll never let go and would never lie to him

Yet....

You apologised

a tear.
a sob.
" I'm so sorry...But I love you..."

and then...

You stopped breathing.
Your smile slowly faded.
Your beautiful eyes closed.
And the grip on his hands which you held slowly loosened.

You broke your promise, you lied.

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Thu, 06 Mar 2008 15:21:16 GMT

DONG BANG !!!
aish quickie come Sg ~
lol my jae's so cute, and yunnie too xD

Happy together, is one of the funniest variety shows i have ever watched thankyou
itssofunnyicantstoplaughing!
i cant wait to master korean so that i wont have a hell of a time navigating thru daum anymore
and then, disappear off to korea and say byebye to this island called singapore hahaha and apply for pr there. but in case cannot make it then keep SG citizenship.
lol im still young why the hell am i thinking o this? cos im in a blah mood now
too blahed to do anything, even to go to sch tmr \

byebye i wanna skip sch tmr but seems like cannot blah i wanna skip trng damn the coach he should go geylang train those whores

ok byebye annyong sayonara

im happy :D , for now :D

Sun, 17 Feb 2008 09:59:12 GMT

yep, im happy, for now.
Cos i got my ipod classic :D and i went to get a SEXY red silicon cover :D cos the other colours so ugly :X
and after the i went out of the apple shop, iw ent to ngee ann city to walk awhile.
Was bored and decided to go to gramophone,
where i found the jap ver of T album 2cd 2 dvd FIRST PRESS with all 5 cards @ only 30 SGD :D
be jaelous :D
heh. told ja-neeee (jane) abt it. heh lucky she din buy it on yesasia. Siao lar online the price 95 bucks. not first press somemore :X

OMG i like the mini live premium - yokohama blitz thang. only first press will have :D
i love maze by jae :D Rarely see him singing fast songs solo :D and he looked so sexy during the song :D
im broke this week.
i got my allowence ytd and spent abt 36 bucks ON THAT DAY ITSELF.
T album + the extra money i had to pay on my own for the silicon case
D:
Broke!
nevermind ...still got next week allowance :DD
HEH and i havent take money frm my dad yet :D
bt wth only 10 bucks frm him, but 50 frm mom :D

and wtffff my mom just flew to japan this morning.
im freaking jaelous that she ALWAYS gets to go cause of her company
i told her that if she sees dbsk (or tohoshinki, as they call in japan), go help me ask for their autograph :D
andand wtf she'll be there for one week.

FUCKKKKK!

the good news : freedom for a week :D
the bad news : I WANT TO GO JAPAN TOOOOO:( gahh dbsk's there ! ) :/
now that spoils my happy mood. im NOT happy now.
HMPH!

Sun, 03 Feb 2008 12:22:21 GMT

Cant wait for CNY to come xD
*kills myself*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JAEJOONGIEE LOVE <333333333333

Sat, 26 Jan 2008 13:11:03 GMT

Saengil Chukha Hamnida
Saengil Chukha Hamnida
SarangHaneun Jaejoong NAMP'YON / OPPA
Saengil Chukha Hamnida!

Happy Birthday, Jaejoong LOVE,
Remember, that no matter what, i'll always be there to support you.
Hopefully, you'll get to know we herostylers and join HS
You are the light in my life xD

Even when i feel alone, even when there are no one to help me
Even when my life seems to fade, i just have to think of you for a second,
and everything turns colour again
Everytime i feel like dropping dead
Everytime i wished i wasn't alive,
everytime i fail
you give me the strength to continue

Your smile, Your pout, Your sad face and angry face (0.0)
Just make my day better
Thanks for coming into my life yea
Without you, i would have given up long ago,
i might have died alrdy,
my world might have turned dead
and without you, i wouldnt have met Chibi,Owdray,Tiff,Hikary,Abbey and everyone at HEROSTYLE

But with you, Everything becomes happy
Although sometimes it doesnt,
IT'S YOU who have made a big impact on my life

I saw a "shooting star" ytd
Actually not shooting star but it looks like one
I made a wish
It was to emigrate to korea/japan (korea is my 1st choice)
and to meet you and become friends
Im just daydreaming, am I?
although i really hope it will come through
Keeping wishes and hopes that are almost impossible, you know...
(cant believe im crying now..)
Everytime i think "WHY cant i just escape reality? Can i just disappear and land up in Korea,
Where i can start life anew
Oh yes i think my life is sucky
If i had a chance to go korea and start again,
i'll make sure i'll do my best"

I always think, why can't i be born as a korean?
i know i have no say in that.
Have you ever wondered, the feeling like your life is dying,
yet, you see a dim light, in front of you
leading you to a new life, a new place,
where you can start your life anew.

I know it is almost impossible,
But for you, JAEJOONG,
Just for YOU, JAEJOONG,
i'll keep wishing,
and trying to make this huge dream of mine come true.

Just for YOU, JAEJOONG, i'll try my best
Just for YOU, i'll try to keep a smile on my face everyday.

SAENGILCHUKHAHAMNIDA,JOONGIEE <33333333333333333333333333

LOVE,

EUNJAE / ESTHER

oh baby i love my new layout!

Mon, 31 Dec 2007 02:54:04 GMT

Went around searching for new layouts.
Stumbles on tinseltown16's page. omo she rocks.

Oh yeahhhh babbbbbbyyyy *self dances*

im getting high after trying to decide which layout to use.
i so love this! planning to tweak this LJ layout into a Blogger one. HAHHHHHH
TVXQ rocks more than my socks :D

At home im rotting much. HAHHHH

i guess i'm moving on..

Fri, 28 Dec 2007 11:35:52 GMT

Alrights.
i've thought about it. and i guess i should move on.I have FINALLY made my decision ,
that i will 99% go and live in another country as soon as possible.
Which i dont think is possible this or next yr, maybe after the O's?
i dont give a damn care.
i dont like th life i'm living now.
Perhaps,it's not meant for me to live like this.
This isn't wad i want.
I am who i am and i should live my life th way i want
So,i shall say byebye to SG SOON

Love, EunJae

yayyyy TVXQ!!!

Thu, 06 Dec 2007 16:09:02 GMT

yay manage to tweak the layout.
real sorry for the trouble, chibi, and, thanks for the help too.

i took like 45 mins to do this.
but it's worth it. and, since theres TVXQ in my layout, im considering moving to here. but
maybe not cos i cant let go of my lbogger acc.
i just love blogger too much:D

maybe i'll post suff abt TVXQ here?
or this will be my 2nd blog. hahahah idk
HELP ME DECIDE WHETHER I SHOULD MOVE OR NOT PLEASE!
ohwell, past midnight le.
and im not asleep yet.
mom's not back yet too 0.0
so late~
TVXQ!!!

and most importantly,
JAEJOONG!

hahah the video show of "the kings men " in youtube was omfg funny.
especially when jaejoong had to dress like a girl, and then when actiing that time,
he trip and accidently pushed the host, who was also acting.
and the host rolled down the steps.
omfg the more i think of it the more i wanna laugh.

JAEJOONG IS SO SEXY/CUTE PLEASE!
hehs.
why cant they just come to SG???

lol.
Annyonghi Jumushipsiyo! (goodnight!)

ughhhhhh

Sun, 02 Dec 2007 04:34:06 GMT

livejournal sucks la. wth

why livejournal sucks?
cus the layout editing sucks